So ... that's the technical part of it.
Here's where I get a tad personal.
I believe we should always be striving (at our own pace) to be better. Once we master one thing , it's onto the next! We have countless opportunities to see where we need improvement but sometimes it's not so clear or maybe we choose to ignore it - in that case life forces us to see. That said, I had felt and witnessed for a while all the angst and frustration that was growing in my daughter. All from the lack of attention and acknowledgement. She is my most reliable and sensible child. She is a great asset to the mechanical workings of our home - meaning she helps me (happily) in order for me to "get things done". Sadly she has always been the one that I push away the most because I reason "she is fine and capable". After a while this had dis-heartened her too much. I could sense she was irritated with me, and held contempt. I think she didn't trust that I loved her enough to give her time - for her sake. I broke her heart a little. Consequently this bad luck with her arm has brought us together again - made us friends again. She witnessed through my love and care for her during a scary and painful experience that I really do love her ... and I have learnt to give her more of that time she desires of me - for her sake. It was lovely to be in hospital with her and only her. To not worry about what might be happening at home and just spend time together as friends again. I love my girl. I always tell her she is better than me in many many ways and I want to be more like her. I admire her for her strength, for her sometimes quiet and other times not so quiet determination, for her personal expression, her LOYALTY, her conviction of things that are right and her sporadic craziness, (she can also be a royal pain). She is mine to nurture for a time, though she is her own person in her own right. I'm so glad I have her example to help me be a better person. I am so glad she is at my side encouraging me and helping me.So in reference to what I first mentioned in this paragraph ~ Through trials I have seen where I need improvement. I want to be the mother that my children deserve and I strive to be better for their sake and for mine.
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